Dig Deep

I stepped on the scale today and, to my dismay, I gained back the 2 lbs. I lost yesterday. I seemed to be in this downward spiral of not being able to lose any weight, and it was incredibly disappointing when I stepped on the scale today. You see, I’d been working so hard over the last month by eating healthier, working out every single day, and standing at my work desk. Doing all the things that are supposed to result in a fitter me.

But no, not today. Today I gained back the only 2 lbs. I’d lost in the past month! It was so discouraging. I wanted to throw in the towel. But, I put on my workout clothes and begrudgingly stomped through the house. I thought to myself, “Why am I even doing this? What is the point?” Let me tell you, I was in a spiral of negativity. I had to dig deep, and I mean really deep. It was time for some serious soul-searching. 

I trudged out to begin my walk and the frustrations just continued to repeat in my mind. Why can't I lose the weight? Why won't it come off of me? What is the problem here? Maybe I should just give up. Maybe I should just quit. Dig deeper, dig deeper…

Then, as I began walking up the first hill, I made it to the top without feeling winded. I took a deep breath, exhaled, and all of a sudden my rational brain came forward. I began to think to myself, “I am getting stronger every day, and I know that I am building muscle. I know that I am increasing my lung capacity and helping my heart. I know that I am making my legs and body stronger.”

Digging a little deeper, I came to the realization that I am grateful for what I have been doing for my body. I know I’m getting fitter and stronger everyday. I am grateful to know that my workout clothes still fit today. I am grateful that my husband snuggled with me in bed this morning, regardless of whether I gained those 2 lbs. or not. 

Breath deepening, pace quickening, and steps lightening, I realized that I am a work in progress. I am a WORK IN PROGRESS! As long as I’m on a forward trajectory, I cannot go backwards. I can choose which direction I am going. I am choosing to go forward. I’m going to be the best me today. Those 2 lbs. will come and go, and I will not allow the scale to dictate my emotional or mental state of mind. I am doing good things for my body everyday! And, I am still a work in progress! I challenge you to dig a little deeper this week. Where are you still growing? Where are you progressing?

What I have learned: I am a work in progress!

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